just so interesting

For the longest time, I depended on the happiness of others to validate my own. Now I've entered into this new understanding, that happiness is temporary and I cant possibly ever satisfy a persons happiness because it's constantly changing. How could anyone be aware of the different extremes of one's state of mind? Unless you can read minds of course, lol... But seriously, it's just so interesting to me that I could put my happiness aside to nature someone else. So now I ask, what makes me give more to someone else, than I would give my own self. Don't get me wrong, I love giving, it's a huge part of what I do everyday. Can I be so comfortable with giving, that I'm not able to receive? I may just get my satisfaction from that.. giving, loving, bringing joy to those who have yet felt the experience. Hmmm Idk maybe I'm just one of those people who live in fantasy, thinking that the world should be this amazing place of fulfillment and passion for things that are good. Maybe it's just me...but I'm ok with that:)